SEND: Prayer

MARGARET D. GILL

 

Dear God:

This is me.  I know you remember. I am the one with the bipolar grey.  I will get straight to the point (we is say straight to the pint in Bajan.  At least my Dad who as you know is now dead (I miss him so) uses to say).  But to get straight back to the pint: sometimes I feel I miss your direction and guidance, whichin   I always saying an nobody ent telling me back so.   You Know/ “Guidance” though.

Indeed you are in my spirit, or rather I feel your spirit in me, but sometimes so far down,  is   sometimes be hard to know.  Or hard to meet the criticisms of you (sorry about the grammatical errors and typographical too but I have to get back to sleep soon).

I am so often unable to meet the criticisms of you.  I find no words to meet the accusation that you are our creation rather than we yours.  And who to really know?

I feel you so…I know  I do not have to meet them (the accusations and the error), because I feel you even now saying, no.  gracious-like, and so

I follow the gold that follows me always, and keeps me saying, or you saying oe   we both saying, I approve of you. Of you.  Of me?  Of both of we.

Can I still say I wish I did not have to feel the fear?  And there it is, the real bug bear.  The thing that makes life so–I have to say, difficult- not the trials, but the fear.  Yes, I know the WORD says (what a ting, neh?  WORD “says”):

       “I have not given you a spirit of fear, but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” (cannot remember where that come from, but it in the Bible cause I read it there and anyway, I do not have to tell you how to find it, you might want to ask the Angel in the Department Office.  The one you know . She know ).  One ting, it is from the King James Version that people love to hate, but Lord, ah have tah tell yah, you ever read Isaiah in the KJV?  Word WORD father!  Listen, (I know you know a’ready, but listen): 

       “Fear thee not for I am with thee. Be not dismayed, for I am thy God.  I will help thee. Yea, I will strengthen thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.”  Word, den! Isaiah 41:10.KJV.

Anyhow, not wanting to hold you up, you busy wid de vipers and ting, so, I hitting send, wid Guidance

Margaret D. Gill, published and performance poet following in the footsteps of her mother, who wrote plays and recitations for children's Sunday school concerts.  Won her first international award for poetry, Shankar's International Children's Competition in India, at 14.  2007 Visiting Writer to Hong Kong Baptist University and Shandong University, China, as part of their jointly hosted International Writers' Workshop. Inaugural first-prize winner, Frank Collymore Literary Award (FCLA), and 2006 second-prize FCLA winner to Kamau Brathwaite. Latest performance, University of the West Indies, Cave Hill, Nelson Mandela 100 years birthday celebrations.